What To Write...

So, I'm still alive. I just can't think of what to write right now for my entry...On that note, I'm not even sure that there are any readers left to be writing for...eh, that's not gonna stop me. I can just be random and crazy and not worry about anyone reading or scoffing at my poor sense of humor that I find humorous(primarily because I'm pretty convinced that there are no readers left). So once again, you've failed my archnemesis! YOU know who you are!

I finally got my lil' vixen out and I'm now riding it on beautiful sunny days like today! (for any of those that are either perplexed or worried by that previous statement, lil' vixen is my Kawasaki Ninja 500R!) I have to say, the last two weeks without her and having to watch all these other riders enjoy the beautiful weather on THEIR motorcycles was torturous!

I am also learning Tagalog (sort of). I try to remember to give myself a little break on the whole "beating yourself up" thing because I realize I tend to set the bars too high when it comes to expectations of myself (but it's really hard!). That's what I keep telling myself. I'm beginning to understand things at the meetings and get a general idea of what they're talking about (like it's hard to go there and figure out WHAT the meeting is going to generally be about!). I have really enjoyed learning it though, and the friends there are wonderful. No matter the discouragements or how many, just as many or more encouragements arise to meet them, as long as I keep my eyes out for them. It reminds me that we are provided shelter, even when it's in the middle of the storm, and it's sure to hold up against the weather. It's been challanging, but worth it by far, very rewarding. Besides, by no means have I had more challenges than the other mga kapatid (brothers and sisters) before me that learned the language so they could do as the text for this year says, "lubusang magpatotoo sa mabuting balita". I admire them for their hard work and efforts. They do so much, I hope soon to be able to share the load rather than add to it. There's a good friend there that I have been asking a lot from, and she's been so willing to do what she can, all of mga kapatid have. They've all been so willing to welcome me into their social circles and have been so patient with me. I am so glad that they are willing to extend a great amount of mercy to me.

I haven't really been as comfortable with my new friends as I should, I don't really joke around much with them. It's my fault, I don't allow myself to be comfortable with them. I worry about too much with all the new things I'm encountering. I tend to do that. Unfortunately, I've withdrawn back into my shell. It's been broken before, it just has to be broken again! I keep telling myself, this is just a bump, transitions always start out rough like this right? ... 0_o peoplez? right! Ganbatte Sharkie! (great! Now I'm talking to myself in third person form!) Well, I think that's enough nonsense for one day. I ended up talking about a lot more than I had intended. That should last you guys for about another three months right? Alrightalright!

Keep those eyes on this nonsensical page...

(dictionary.com is taking WAY too long to load *yes anything more than 10 seconds classifies as WAY too long, I'm impatient! What! You didn't know this by now?!* [just kidding! I'm just impatient when it come to internet and computers...and driving ;p] so if I spelled nonsensical incorrectly I want you to EAT IT! XD) Okay, bye now.

Commonplace or Unconventional?

Although I think it's important to have a degree of routine and structure in our lives, stability, I think it is important to have good changes and try new things in life (good new things). Which is interesting given the fact that I have fallen into a dull routine. Trying new things (within reason) and venturing to go to new places stimulate the mind and wake you up a bit...or at least it feels that way to me. I think it is better to have a stable routine with trying something new, different, as part of it. Now I just have to figure out how to incorporate that into my life. This is hard! Figuring out how to make this stuff work!

I love how my entries have no specific direction, they're just all over the place. It makes only the readers of truly strong minds able to sustain the insanity. I love it! It's even better when you get to watch someone struggle to understand the chaos and then just pass out from the sheer exhaustion and confusion of it all. Muahaha!--er ehem. I mean, I wish more people could understand me! This is so depressing! But in all seriousness...coffee is a terrible vice...moving on.

If you haven't taken a good look outside and thought about the great things today, you should do it. Don't forget to take in the sweet things around you that are all too often taken for granted. So just take a moment and take in the sights. This is where the taking part is a good thing. Right now, I'm looking and a beautiful sunset (yes the sun is setting at noon), and looking at the beautiful blanket of snow covering the trees and mountains, they rest so peacefully (avalanche is when they are abruptly disturbed from their beauty sleep, like a woman. I'm kidding! Sorry girls. Well...that's what happens when my beauty sleep is disrupted...then again, I'm not exactly your typical woman.), waiting to burst out in spring with life and energy spreading the joy and...I'm going to stop there.

Hey, I've noticed that the comments are little on the...lacking side. There are three possibilities, either I've confused all of my readers to the point of checking themselves into the institute for the mentally destitute, I've lost my readers to the lack of interest and/or sleep virus, or I've just scared my readers from giving me feedback...hmm...nah! I welcome your positive feedback (constructive, as long as it's not critical. If it is, you will be DELETED!! Deletedeletedelete laladeeletinglah!...maybe I'm a little too delete happy here...nah!)
Well...I think that's enough rambling for one day.

Keep your toes and fingers warm (if you're in the land of frigid cold. If your not, then I have nothing to say to you!).